Last night, I had an exchange of messages from a certain classmate of mine. I asked her a favor to stay longer in Cebu since there are things which I needed help from her.
Initially, I have not told her yet about my favor but instead ask her when is she coming back to Cebu. Then that went on until the moment came when I asked her a favor.
I’ve waited for a “YES” reply.
Tik tok tik tok tik tok. The time was running still no message came in.
Tik tok tik tok. And, a message came in.
Unfortunately, she did not say yes and said “I’m sorry” instead. She added that she has something lined up on June 1 which makes her not able to stay until June 3 or so.
I felt disappointed, I thought that serious favors like this would have a yes or would have at least a nice feedback in return. I can still remember that this was the first time I asked for such a significant favor like this and yet it was turned down. What went wrong? Do I miss something here?
So the following afternoon, I called my other classmate, and shared the thing to her. She told me that I must never expect her to say yes since her mind is unpredictable. So the conversation was cut.
Now I realize that no matter how good friends you are, no matter how significant the favor is, you can never expect a yes answer to it. I remember what a teacher once told me, “In life there are two answers, YES or NO. If you don’t get to receive a yes then definitely it’s a no, but if you happen to receive yes, then definitely it’s a yes”. He’s right perhaps. Now I understand how life can be unpredictable sometimes. I am the person who always say yes to favors because of friendships and because of its significance that sometimes I don’t get to decline a favor which I overlooked also that could happen if I were the one who’ll ask for a favor someday, that it’s never gonna be declined. But I was wrong.
I am not making a circus out of this thing. It’s just that I have no outlet for what I felt. I am not the person who holds grudges or who holds something bitter if I don’t get to have what I want but I have the tendency to be childlike in terms of being “luudan” or “tampuhin” in Tagalog. I such feeling right now but I hope it shall pass away. 🙂